Where I've Been And Where I Am

I see my last post was in September, of 2009. It was about Sarah Palin. So much of what I wrote here was about politics, and over a year later, I could really care less about politics. Chock it up to cynicism or to being immersed in a completely different line of work or chock it up to nothing at all, I guess.

After covering (and caring!) so much about the 2008 election and getting Obama into the White House, and then seeing the results of the past two years--both his failures and the failures of both parties--I learned that no matter how much you care or how much you want things to change, nothing will. So, I've stopped caring. I don't have the time for that. Who does? Sure, I still take sides and I still love finding people absurd, but I don't really care.

I don't know what I care about now, if I'm being honest. I moved. I guess I care about that. For the first time in my adult life, I quit a job after securing another one to take its place. This new job brought me to San Francisco. I live somewhere nice. I'm making friends. I've dated.

For the first time in seven years, I fell in love this past year, I think. But I'm trying to forget about it. Try to forget about the people you love. That's the one piece of advice that this entry will provide. Try to forget. I dare you. Maybe I still am in love? I don't know. I don't care. Just kidding, I do care about him.

I'm healthy. No spleen problems. Of course, it's hard to have spleen problems when you don't have a spleen.

I've traveled in the past year. Went to Chicago for the first time and Miami for the first time and would never want to live in either city.

I like California.

I'm sorry that I've started so many paragraphs with "I."

I don't know what shape this blog will take now, since I don't care about anything. Isn't that the point of having a blog, to write about what you care about?

Have I forgotten how to write, or have I forgotten how to care?

Have I forgotten how to care because I haven't been writing or have I forgotten how to write because I haven't been caring?